~Author Unknown
I am inspired to write a love letter to our sweet boy from my new friend, Sarah. This is different from my normal writing, but I am feeling a change-up.
Sarah and I both recently lost our babies. We both lost our first babies. Her little angel, Grace, and my Jackson are a little over one week apart. We are grieving together, and it has been a great source of comfort to have another mama walking at the exact same pace as me. We feel the same emotions, often at the same times. We are mama's to angels in Heaven, but we sure do wish with every fiber of our being that we could be mother's to those sweet babies on Earth. We will always be soul sisters, even though we have not met yet. We plan to though very soon! See you soon Sweet Sarah!
Go visit Sarah's blog. She is amazing and inspiring. You will love her. Lets support her and John with love and prayers.
On to my letter. No pictures today, just a letter.
Sweet Angel Jackson-
I sit here staring at a blinking cursor.
What do you say when there is so much to say? Do you know how much you are loved? Do you know how much you are missed? Do you know how much we need you?
Your mama and daddy need you here. We need to hold you. We need to have you grasp your tiny little hand around our fingers. We need to see you stretch out those legs and kick those sweet little feet. We need to smell the top of your head, pinch those full little cheeks, and shower you kisses. We need to wake up in the middle of the night to feed you and soothe you back to sleep in the rocking chair. We need to hear you cry and we need to hear you laugh. We would love to see a good gummy baby smile right now. We need to experience that look that babies give their parents the "oh, I do not know much about anything...but I know I love you" look. The look of pure comfort and joy, really. Sweet sweet baby love. We need all of it, and then some. And then some more.
Our arms are empty and we do not understand. We know you are happy and safe in Heaven with the Lord, but we would argue that you would be happier and safer right here in our arms. We know that much.
We thank you for some good days, some great sunshine, and love. We just wish that all of these things were shared with you right beside us. Every second of every day makes us think of you, love you, and miss you. You have been an amazing angel to not only us, but to many other people. We are proud parents, and hope that you continue to keep up the good work. We know you would never let anyone down because you are just that good at what you do, and you heart is just that big. Your footprints are everywhere :) We may not get to watch you grow, but we do get to watch you do really incredible things from Heaven...and that is very very cool. We are proud parents. We are so very proud of you, sweet boy.
We watched this the other day and thought of you...We all miss you, even Lucy.
You, Jackson Neil, are the love of our life. We will love you and miss you forever. We will cry tears and miss you everyday, until we close our eyes for the last time on Earth. We love you to the moon and back. We love you forever. We love you for always.
Love,
Mom and Dad
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